Divorce ? NEVER TILL..

Today I was having a discussing with my friend on marriage We both had same views that we don't want to get married. We don't want responsibilities. We want freedom and a good career. We want our dreams to be fulfilled rather than having a child and compromising with that. She was afraid about one more thing. A husband who cheat.

I was also afraid that such a cheap person will come to my life and that's why I told my family I am not going for marriage. But not now anymore. Not because I am confident I will get a person who love me truly and deeply. True love, that's crap. Its because I don't care anymore.

She said if her husband have an extra martial affair, she will divorce him that spot. But I had a different viewpoint. Why divorce and why live with that? 

What will happen if I divorce such a husband? He will finally marry that woman and both will live happily. But what about me. What will I do? See all these and live my damn crap like lonely life with depression and hatred. Why should I? 

Hence I will not. I will not allow him to leave my side till I find someone and till I move on. Till that point I won't allow him to even spent time with her. Till I also cheat on him the same way he did, he should suffer like I will suffer then. Till I move on, he should remain with me. He can't go for her at any means. Because I don't want to end up pitiful and lonely.

For that she asked but how will you do it? What if he says that he will not stay with me? Well I won't give him any choice. He can do anything before his family. But not in front of his society. Society will be my weapon. The same society who he will fear. The same society that will see me pitiful, will be my weapon. Because now all fear what others will think. Hence I won't divorce till I find another person and till I move on. 

THE TIMEMACHINE

Today I saw a post in Facebook where that person want a time machine to go back. That person want to go back to change what she had done in the past. And then many people who equally wanted that liked the post. So that made me think do I ever want to go back and change something?

No, I never want to go back and change anything. Even if my life is going to be like hell where I get suffocated and can't even breathe, still I never want to go back. I don't want to go back and see the same people again. I could have gone and done something different. That would have changed my life, I would have been different. So I don't want to go back. I love myself to death and I never want to change from what I have become today.

Regret, that's what all are concerned about. But I don't regret at any point of my life. I plan and make my today's action, so that I don't regret ever in my life. Even if I regret, I clear that. For things that I can't clear, I forget and never remember it. That way I live my life.

To all who want a time machine, that is something you won't get. So try to be comfortable with what you are and what you did. Rather than a time machine, talk directly to the person no matter even if you have to put your head down. Throw your self esteem for that moment and ask for forgiveness. Even though that person won't forgive you, you will find a big sense of happiness. From that point even though that person won't smile, you will with all heart. Eventually that person will.

So live your life. Ask for forgiveness when you did something regrettable. Say things directly when needed. Go for silence when you want peace. Be careful with your words and actions. Its said that acts and words cannot be taken back. I would make a change, words can be taken back but not your acts. So think well and always ask yourself what you want.